Monday, January 22, 2007

hallo.

today quite eventful. econs lecture was confusing, econs tutorial was insightful but boring, literature was interesting, as usual, math lecture was enriching even thou our math teacher seem to be in a very good mood today but i still think she rocks way more den the last. GP was cool, animal farm, sometimes just feel for mr wahab. i think i m in no position to say this la knowing how notorious i m for not handing in my work but just felt that the way he runs his lessons is already his best efforts to engage all of us, just felt bad that people were falling asleep when he let us watch a movie. i mean like, he could have made us write an essay. and just felt he was really nice giving me that extra day to do my essay. thank you sir! pe was crazy, ran 6 rounds, 1335 timing SUCKS! after that still went another 5 rounds, siao la! still did dips and pull ups. the darn funny thing was i still went to play soccer after that. need to rave about my goals. since i havent played soccer for so long and i need to boost my own ego. LOL! the first goal was cool, turn shoot, never tried that before, so it was a nice goal to score even thou it wasnt like spectacular. thats for the next goal, i saw cp running to the far post so i tot i ll chip the ball there for him, den i think i put too much weight and the ball just floated in. even the keeper who was like at least 1.8 didnt get to it. haha. alonso style but purely tyco!

anyways. i think more than life is a really nice song, sort of the stirry makes u tear under the presence song. i did qt too woohooo! prayed for like 12 mins i think, but didnt get much from 7 chapters of matthew. but came home, just felt like picking up the daily bread next to me before i typed this blog, den i opened the daily bread and the presence just fell in. i read the 19th jan to 22 jan entry, and i just felt it was really speaking to me, i felt like a seed that was sown on thorns, that while God called us to be a part of the world and not of it, Jesus put us in the world and even told God not to take us out of it. why, not for us to be consumed, not for our hearts to be choked and the cares and pleasures of this alluring world, but simply to be that light. and i thought about it, and the next page, jeremiah 15:16 just spoke to me, just like a lack of food would bring diseae and famine, wad is true in the natural is also true in the spiritual. and both sort of combine, its like, ur diet manager of wadever u call that job, tells u not to overconsume fatty food, and under him, indeed u become healthy, indeed its better for u. but like any human being, we all love the food, deep fried, deep fried and more deep fried, we can barely go anywhere without casting a glance on fried food, its smell will forever permeate the air we breathe, never ceasing to kick start the working of enzymes and the saliva in our mouths, everything is fine, but without that self learned discipline, without that self control, and without applying wad ur diet manager has taught u, ur gonna fall back into that bad habit. just like us, put in the world, told to engage culture and not let its culture engage us, to be a city set on a hill that cannot be hidden, not a village set inside a valley thats full of villans. and i guess that once we dun stand upon wad our spiritual diet manager, the holy spirit tells us, once we move away from the spiritual diet set for us, we fall back into that buffet of lawlessness.

and He spoke into my mind, you i have called for a purpose. what i have called you for, let nothing stop you from going there.

and i tried
studies wise, seriously whack like siao to finish my hw
engaged people i neglected in my last year
taking responsibility for the people placed under my care
even working out of my spiritual famine

but theres one that seems so hard. one that i rather earn den have it given to me simply because i cannot exercise restraint. but because i love you so. and i love You so. because i dare not embrace change. can i really be like what this song says, can i love You more than life?

|cowpoo| 8:07 PM|

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